Hi!

Just a quick entry! Doing awesome! Have not gotten to go walking as much as I would like but have been working it hard on the workouts. Tomorrow is a family function where I am going to have no choice but to have a little cheat. To be honest I am nervous about it. This is normally where I lose it. I have one cheat day that turns into 2 that turn into a week, that turns into 20lbs!

I am going to try really hard, I am not going to fall back into that. I have to tell you, I a pair of jeans I bought from torrid. Regular jeans (no stretch!) sz 14. When I ordered them I could not even get them on. I was able to squeeze into them about 2 months ago but I could not wear them because they are the distressed kind with some holes and the "stress" my thighs would have cause they distressed holes would have made them split lol!!BUT!! I wore them yesterday and they are soooooo lose! No joke after wearing them for a while they were sliding off my butt! Crazy!

For you guys who have done this, at the end of the 30 days did you start over or what did you move on to?

Mommyonmeds you had asked about joining your twitter group but I do not know how! I made a twitter account but did not know how to find you all!

Day 21 weigh in and pics

I was super stressing about thinking I did not lose this week! But! I did!! 6.2 lbs for the week! Yay! I am down a total of 23.8. I am thrilled! Crazy!! Even though Jillian is an evil bitch, I love her!! Pics below!
Pics are in order as Day 1,7,14 & 21 first the front shots, then the side shots!

Day 20 Level 3 and I am still alive

Barely!!! I really pushed it though. Tomorrow is weigh in and from being bloated from pms I am stressing I am not down much. I have not cheated one time, nor have I skipped a workout, so we will see tomorrow!! Level 3 was kick ass. OMG, I am convinced Jillian is really a dominatrix who is here to try to make me cry LOL!

I made it though. I had sweat pouring off me. It is funny. On day 1 I could barely get through the minute of jumping jacks, now I hop up and down like I have a pogo stick up my ass!!

Weigh in and pics tomorrow. Hopefully it is good!

Day 20

It is day 20 Wow! BTW I was rereading my post from yesterday laughing my butt off! I was beat when I posted and OMG! it was the most typo filled illiterate post I have ever seen! Anyways, day 20, I need to move to level 3...whoo hoo. (If I do not post tonight to update it means I am dead!)

I am trying to figure out what to do after this 30 days. I mean what plan to follow. Kind of funny. My only goal after the 30 days when I started was to be the first person in Burger Kings drive through so my double cheeseburger would be hot and fresh..LOL now I was to continue. I would love to see a sz 12! I have a pair of old navy jeans that I got as a gift about 5 yrs ago. They never fit and over those 5 yrs they were less and less attainable. hehe, I think at one point I could not pull them over my calf's! But with 14s fitting well right now, I can see those old navy 12s at the end of my tunnel!

Anyways, just felt like babbling this morning!!! Level 3 today! Whoo hooo

Day 19

My cthing is fitting so much nicer. I got into jeans that had not fit me forever and they even a little loose! Whoo hoo, small victory. I was feeling a little discouraged this week cause it is that special time of the month and I am super bloated! Hopefully I will be unbloated by weigh in day..LOL

I have been doing well with level 2 and am ready for level 3 soon. I can not tell you how much better I feel! For real. I run up the stairs and do not feel winded. I have soooo much more energy! I walked past a big window at the store today and caught my reflection and thought....wow, I do not look too bad!! After the end of the 30 days I will post a before pic (real pic face shot and all LOL) and an after pic. After this week I only have one more to go. Honestly it went sooo fast! I have to come with some type of plan to continue when I am done with this. Because honestly, for the first time in mu life I am liking exercise. Ok, maybe I just like the result..LOL

day 15,16,17

Hello,

I have not blogged for a few days, but I am still on track doing great. No one seems to be reading here so I guess I am getting bored feeling like I am talking to myself..LOL. Halloween with the kids tonight will be hard because I looooove candy!! But I am more than half way through and feeling pretty good about it!! So cheating is out of the question!

Day 14 Weigh in with pics

So I was worried about the weight in. Not crazy stressing but I was stressed this week because my daughter had to get a minor surgery, but as a parent nothing is minor when it comes to doing it on my baby!! So I did not cheat as in fatty food, but I felt that I ate more than I should have. But it was healthy food I was eating. My daughter did wonderfully btw and it is a relief to have it done and over with.

I weighed in this morning and was very pleasantly surprised! 7.3 lbs! I was thrilled. The pics below are the progress pics from a side view from day 1 to day 14! I watched biggest loser last night and was so sad that abby went home. I loved her and my heart broke for her. I wish she would have stayed. :( She is beautiful and I pray she has the strength to find happiness in her life. She has been inspiring to many, including myself.

So I am offically down 17.6 lbs and 1/2 way through my 30 days!

1st pic is day 1, 2nd pic is day 7, 3rd pic is day 14

Day 13

Work out 2 is not getting much easier. Maybe it is. I was able to go through without stopping, but sweat was pouring off me and I was huffing and puffing!!!!! Big time. Tomorrow is weigh. I am nervous! Wish me luck!

Day 12

Hello! Back to level 2 today and for real, it kicks my butt. I definitely like getting up early and doing it. Again I am going to try to walk today. I have a bunch to do, it is a busy week. Today my oldest son wanted burger king. I lllllloooooove burger king. I mean love it!! It smelled so good. But honestly at this point I am almost 1/2 way through my goal and I will make it!

Day 11 New Accomplishment

So today was pretty cool. Today I did level one. It was not because I was trying to back peddle but because my older son wanted to do the work out with me and I did not want him to be discouraged by jumping into level 2. So I figured I would do something extra tonight to make up for it. My husband wanted tuna melts and fries for dinner and so after I made their dinner I went for a walk. (I did not want to be in the house with french fries!) I used to try to walk to my daughters preschool which is a mile a way. Mostly up hill. I used to walk it and stop a few times but definitely would huff and puff the whole time. So today I start walk and fast brisk pace and start up the hill, I pumped up that hill and did not stop and barely huffed or puffed. I went both ways (2 miles total) and felt fabulous afterwards! That was amazing. Never, ever have I felt so great after exercise. It was a super cool feeling. So tomorrow back to level 2.

Day 10 level 2 whooooo

OMG! I am now convince Jillian is a sadist. The moves in level 2 are not only harder but awkward. There is one where you stand on one foot and straighten and bend you leg and a slow kicking motion while lifting your weights over your head. I can barely walk and chew gum!I did the best I could. Hopefully it will get easier. I must say on the bright side, i looked forward to the jumping jacks since that was the only thing I knew how to do. lol

Anyways, 4 more days till weigh in. I am wondering how much I will lose this week. I would be thrilled with 3 or 4 lbs! Have a great weekend everyone.

Day 9

I woke up feel much more motivated today! I have already done my work out and it is good to get it out of the way. It is funny, just when it starts to seem easier I get a day where my arms are sore or legs and I feel urrghghghgh I can't finish. But I do. I was so tempted to cheat yesterday. Sooooooo tempted. I made these cresant roll pizzas for the kids and it looked and smelled so good! I did not cheat though. I fought the temptation and a breakfast bar as a snack. mmm yum (not as good as damn crescent roll pizza!) I spent sometime today looking at other people who did this and blogged about it. There were a few that had decent results but most, not so much. It was a little discouraging to see. I am hoping it is because they were not consistent with it. I know my weight loss is not going to be every week like last week but I would be bummed if it is all I lost!

I would love nothing more than to visit my family for the holidays looking healthy and having a nice weight loss. Anyways, is there anyone out there in blog land who is doing this now or has in the past? What were your ending results and did you do it everyday?

Have a great weekend everyone. It is Friday!!

Day 8

So I am thinking on Day 10 I will move to level 2. If I do not blog after that it means Jillian killed me! I was busy running around today and the last thing I felt like doing was working out but when I got home I forced myself to do it. I am tired, cranky and sore.

Ok, done whining. I notice my jeans are fitting better. I have not zipped my stomach up in them lately. lol, good sign huh? Seriously though, it is encouraging to see results! Not a whole lot to say tonight. I am just tired. Sorry, does not make for good reading but I will be back to my energetic self tomorrow I am sure!

Day 7

I had a few minutes of quiet and after last nights victory I just wanted to take a minute and share a little about me. This is important to me. It saddens me sometimes that is has never been important enough in the past to really make it work. I think I am always so worried about being a good mother, good wife, good daughter, good friend, etc I never take the time to be good to me.

I would watch the Biggest Loser and just being in awe at the people on there. These are real people! People my size and bigger who learn to commit. Even the people who get sent home. You see their after pics and you can tell they really committed, even though they were home.

I would watch Bob and Jillian and be inspired by them. I like Bob but I just think Jillian rocks! Besides being hot (which she is!) she does not baby people. One of my favorite lines in the work out video is during the second set of jumping jacks. She comments that if you are looking for a motified version of jumping jacks, look elsewhere, she continues to remind you that she has 400 lb people who do jumping jacks and we can too. I will be honest. They first time I did the video it was the second set of jumping jacks and I was like, grrrrrr I hate jumping jacks and I was kind of doing them in a (excuse the term) half ass way, then I heard her say that. You know what! It is true. I thought of those people on biggest loser who I have seen work their buts off! And I start jumping like I had a pogo stick up my butt LOL! She really is inspiring.

I know it has only been a week. I have obviously dieted for a week before, but I do not think I have ever in my life, exercised everyday for a week. Sad, huh? But it has been a commitment and hopefully is turning into a way of life. Normally I just eat what the kids eat, and I have been making sure I make other things for me with less calories. After having a big weight loss this week, I am even more excited to see next week. So I will make it through another week with NO cheats and not missing a day of working out.

I have to tell you on day one it was very humbling and somewhat humiliating to post my before pics, but I knew I had to. I wanted to show the progression of what a small commitment of 30 days could do. I wanted to be able to look through this on hard days and say, wow! I am starting to see a difference. Last night when I took the new pic, I almost broke my neck to post it! I am starting to see a difference and it has only been one week!!! Wish me luck on week 2! Here we go!

Day 6 OMG!

OK, I am weak. I know I was not supposed to weigh in until tomorrow morning but I broke! I weighed in and da da da I lost 10.3 lbs! I have been working my butt off. Eating 5 small meals a day. Doing the shred every morning and sit ups in the evening and walking a few times in between. I am so excited!!!! I know alot was water weight and I know next week will be much less but still, 10.3 lbs! that is 1/2 of my baby girl. So here goes the first week of pics to compare. BTW Kellydriver2 I am so excited you are doing this with me! Thank you for your comment and support. It really, really means alot.

Day one




















After one week

Day 5

Wow, I almost made it through the first week. I walked an extra mile this afternoon. Not a power walk, more of the stroll (I had my daughter) But as far as the work out it is just become routine. I wake up and immediately go downstairs and do it. No putting it off, no whining. Just get up and go.

I am almost looking forward to weighing in. (almost!!!) I hope I am not disappointed. I have been trying really hard.

Day 4

Work out was good today. It is getting easier. Still hard as heck but I can go through it without wanting to stop.

Most importantly it is football day in my house. We always eat tons of yummy foot on Sunday football days. I did good and did not eat any of them. I am really serious about committing for the 30 days with hopes that after the 30 days I wlll just be used to eating healthy and continue! I do have my daughters birthday coming up but I am not going to stress about it. We will go out to eat and I will have a small piece of cake. I will not eat until my eyes begin to bulge! (like I normally would on a special day) I cooked all their food, wings, pizza, fries with cheese and I made sure I did not even "test" as I was cooking. To be honest I was not even tempted. I am going to do this. I know I can. I joked with my husband that I committed to marriage, I committed to being a mom, if I cannot commit to being healthy for 30 to start that is pretty sad!

Hope you are all having a good day. It is snowing here :)

Late night

I am blogging mainly because it is 3.30 am and I am up with the baby. Normally I would eat to stay awake. But I am fighting that temptation.

Today when I did the work out it was good. I have upped my calories a little so I was not as tired today. I know when I ran upstairs to get the baby this morning I could feel my leg muscles. It was a good feeling knowing I was working them. I am looking forward to weighing in. I know I will have a good week, normally everyone does because you lose all that initial water weight. But regardless it is a great boost to see a good number the first week!

Day 3

Hello! I have not yet worked out, it is only 7:30 but everyone is camped out in the living room where I do the video. I will do it as soon as everyone spreads out LOL! I am feeling good. I have not eaten after 6 pm at night. Which is good for me because sometimes I get munchy! I have to work on drinking water. I always seem to forget.

My hobby is coupon shopping. As I was doing my lists last night I was laughing to myself. Cookie dough, betty crocker warm delights, etc NO wonder I am over weight!!! I should pick up needle and thread to sew my mouth shut! I am just teasing, I should be able to have these things in my house without binging on them. My children should be able to have cookies in the house and I should be able to buy with out fear that I can't because I will eat them.

I am really sincere that this is a change I need to make. God gave me these beautiful children, my handsome husband and my happy life. The least I can do is have some self discipline so I can stay healthy to enjoy them all. I can and I will!

Enough of the pumping up, self esteem booster of the day! Jillian is waiting for me!!

Day 2

This morning went much smoother than yesterday! I got the girls up, we had snuggle time and then straight to Jillian. I am not sure I will work it when my husband goes back to working 2nd shift. I have not even told him I was doing this. Not because he does not support me, because he does. But he will go on something with me and do it for a few days and stop and that is why I have my mind set I am doing it alone this time (well, with the support of you guys!!) My hubby recently lost 18 lbs, I have went out of my way to help him by packing only healthy lunches and meals for him. I am proud of him but now it is my turn!

Anyways so to the workout!!! It was a little harder today. Maybe because my arms and legs were sore from yesterday. I did make it though. I had a healthy breakfast and am trying to motivate to clean! I am going to try to stay under 1000 calories a day. (does anyone know if that is reasonable?) I will have to google it and see what the average calorie intake should be while trying to lose.

My husband and the kids were planning Chinese buffet this weekend and I told my hubby to just take the kids, the baby and I would stay home. I know they have some salad stuff. I just do not want to be that tempted yet so I would rather not put myself in the situation.

So I am only going to weigh in once a week (which will kill me!!!!) and I will take pics each week.

Hope everyone has a great day!!!

Made it through day one

I made it. Day one and although that does not sound like a huge achievement it was!! My hubby is sick and super whiny, both girls have not been feeling well and making it through the work out I had the baby in her bouncy and my 3 yr old sitting beside me on the floor and I sang the abc's with them 20 times all while not trying to pass out from Jillian kicking my butt! The work out was hard but I did not stop once. At one point towards the end during jumping rope I almost stopped but I pushed through! Yay me!

Calories today 995
Fat 11 g
water 7 glasses

Good Morning

I am grateful that I was brave enough to post this here and on the message board and I am thankful to the couple followers I have. I am dragggggggin this morning! I am excited about starting, but it was a long nite. The baby is teething and was up every 2 hrs. Reasons like this are why I always put it off. Oh, I am tired today, I will start tomorrow and since I am not starting till tomorrow I should eat what I want today!

Not today. I am getting my tired butt awake and going to visit Jillian Michael s to start day one of the 30 day shred. Wish me luck!!!!

The Day Before

Hello,

30 days, when we think of 30 days it does not seem like alot. To me it sounds like a small goal, one I can defeat. But it is scary to be honest. I do not think I have done anything successfully for 30 days straight except eat! I am blogging here under one of my old emails because I want to be able to be honest. I do not want to have to worry about my husband or friends reading it and judging me. I have yo yod with weight lose for years. About 2 years ago I thought I was on the road of beating it. I joined weight watchers and lost 30 lbs easily. Shortly after I found out I was pregnant with my daughter. What a blessing she is! All my kids are!! I tend to do very well during the pregnancy and gain little weight. It is after I fall apart. Tired from late night feedings, eating quick unhealthy food, no time for me or working out, I could give you 1000 excuses. Point being, they are just that, excuses. Sad excuses. If it was important to me I would find time. I find time to shop online, I find time to chat it up on facebook with friends, if I wanted to get my booty off the couch and exercise I would.

I need to. I need to be here for my girls. I need to be healthy and be able to run with them without being winded. I also need to do it for me. I am an ok looking chickie! LOL I clean up well! I have always loved, clothes, shoes, hair and makeup and right now I feel blah. I feel uncomfortable around everyone including myself in front of the mirror.

You know what I was thinking about last night......is food so good that it is worth me feeling this way??? Seriously, what in the world could be so gratifying that it could justify me doing this to myself, killing my self esteem. Making me uncomfortable in my own skin. I need to do this. I am going to visit my family I have not seen in a year on November 18th and I want to go and be proud of me and who I am. I want to be proud of my whole package, all of me, inside and out!

So here I am, the day before I start. I am going to do Jillian Michaels 30 day Shredd. I am going to do it daily! Yes daily!! I am going to eat healthy and post it here. And worse yet...I am posting my weight with photos!!! (the horror!)

I could really use support during this month, I could really use people out there going through the same just saying hello! I know I can do this!

Ok, Here are the before pics!! I did not say they were pretty...LOL. But I am brave if nothing else! Lets see what a difference 30 days makes!

Thank you so much!